Thursday, February 4th 2016
It's been almost three years since i wrote my last blog post. It's 4.57 PM and I'm still stuck here in Jogja.
I'm still here, doing nothing most of the time. Although I tried to finish my degree soon. I wrote the last post when I just graduated college, and now almost three years later the 25 years old me battling with what people called quarter life crisis, well, I read about it on the internet and I felt that I experience the same things. But I could be wrong though. It's kinda funny that when I wrote the last post, I'm still a confused girl who didn't know how to respond to a guy. Long story short, I ended up dating the guy I wrote alot in my past blog post. We dated for about 7 months but then i felt that it didn't work out so I ended it. Actually, until this second I'm writing this, I still don't know if I made the right desicion. But he's married now, and clearly that's the end of my wondering if I should get back together with him or not. I ended it pretty harshly and if I were him, I will hate myself for saying such horrible things to him. There's alot of time I regreted what I've said, but there's also a lot time that I hesitated to apologize to him. The strange thing is, I dreamed about him a lot. But then again, he's married so it's not like I can do anything. I just had my birthday a couple weeks ago and strangely I'm waiting for his wishes but not so strangely he didn't wish me a happy birthday.
Did I just wasting 3 years worth of my life doing something that I hate?